you just don't

stay up from 3am to 12am thinking about the same
bite your nails as if the waiting would cease
listen to the same song over and over again
take 4 tylenols in less than 2 hours saying the headaches don't stop
change red for brown (metaphorical nor literally speaking)
ask for advice, not even to prove your own self wrong
watch Everything is illuminated on a grey monday afternoon
leave the backdoor open just to see if someone would come in
wait wait wait for something to happen
change your bed for a computer
list stupid things you (did but) shouldn't do